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Tue, 30 Jan 2007 04:31:30 GMT

This weeks plans {for anyone who really gives a shit}
Tuesday: Lunch with my grandmother. Hanging out with Corey at night.
Wenesday: Getting the paint for Lily-love's room. Pool with Rob? Maybe.
Thursday: Tutor is coming. Then maybe going to my dads.
Friday: Hanging out with the lounge kids.
Saturday: Painting Lily's room. Seeing the Bleeding Alarm {maybe, that still undecided} and then going to Chrissy's big birthday party

Dates to look forward to/Remember:

2.2: 34 weeks for me and Lily<3
2.3: Chrissy's birthday party
2.11: Baby shower/ Fred's birthday
2.13: Doctors appointment
2.15: Tom's surgery
2.22: Brittany's birthday
2.23: Jeremy's birthday
2.28: Eric's birthday
3.17: My due date<3<3<3

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 23:47:51 GMT

Im really bored and theres someone I want to talk to and I dont think he wants to talk to me so I'm just going to sit here and wait for megan to get back from humping sam because i miss her and she makes me feel better. byyye
ps. i miss brittany a lot

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 20:39:27 GMT

So I have disapointed Megan because I told her Titanic is on and she's in the car. I love it, I havent talked to her in forever and I call her and we're laughing hysterically. We're hanging out tomorrow cause I miss her. Anyway, the vacation that was supposed to be amazing sucked major ass because my cousin ditched me and didnt show up and i'm really mad at him for it. He ignored all my calls cause he knows I'm pissed. Anyway, I love my friends. They're amazing, and they make me laugh and I never felt more missed as I did when Erica, Crissy and John showed up at my house yesterday because Erica screamed and launched herself at me, and it made me smile. Anyway, I'm happy.

Call the cell if you ever want to chill.

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 16:58:48 GMT

I had the weirdest dream last night. it started out that i woke up and went outside and all my friends were in the pool, on the deck, running aroudn the backyard. It's like six in the morning and they're all in swim suits. So i just get in the pool, hang out and shit, and my mom runs outside and tells me I have to get dressed because Megans coming and they'll leave without me. So i run around and get dressed and i have to wait in a line and i'm next in line and Megan leaves. Then she comes back. And I get in the car and its her dad, mom, and billy with us. And we're going to the mall. I need a ciggarette and apparently Megan and I have a few left over so I smoke one and for some odd reason Billy gives me a Bra he found under the front seat even though I was already wearing one. Anyway, we picked up Erica and we go to the mall and we get there and we get out and we walk for a really really really long time. Then we go into like this huge theatre and they're showing some sort of movie but you have different challenges you have to do to win or something, like you have to collect things underwater without surfacing. And you have to eat cookies without breaking them. And make poisoness candles nonposioness. So then, we go through the tasks and a ladys walking around selling things, cotton candy, shirts, and different stuff. I buy a cotton candy and a tinkerbell costume and all of sudden Brittany's there, in my tinkerbell costume. And so, something happens and Megan and I leave and we're searching for the car. it's a very indepth search. ANd matt's there now. And he's looking for his car. All he knows is it's next to a masta 6 or something so him and erica are running around asking if anyone has that car. Megan and I go outside, I have no clue what happened to Brittany, but we smoke a cigarette and walk towards the parking lot, looking for the car. Theres this big ass pool, like a blow up layer cake, and theres a food stand on top and a huge ass line with people screaming that sophmores rule. And theres a bar. And so Megan and I are walking, and we're all wet from people splashing us. And then I woke up.

I also remember a dream last night about me and corey and matt and a flooding parking garage but I dont remember anything else.

I;m officially insane.

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 19:17:59 GMT

So I get to meet johns family in an hour. Like the whole family. Then tomorrow at 5 am the car picks us up to go to florida for a week. I dont know if im excited or upset about it. Whatver.

I love you guys.

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 16:03:50 GMT

Btw, theres a new development that Megan and Rhiannon are the coolest people ever. And we're totally bestfriend and it's amazing and we're hanging out tonight so what now, bitches. I'm just happy as hell. Anyway, i dont know what to do about boys, but whatever, im happy so im not thinking about it.

byyye

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 21:10:18 GMT

I dont need you.

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 11:37:53 GMT

Things are getting better.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 21:16:32 GMT

fuck.promises
fuck.teen.love
fuck.being.emo.

fuck crying over stupid boys.

Jeremy broke up with me.

fuck. him.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 21:25:24 GMT

Things are just amazingly fucked up right now. Everyones cutting and everyones crying and every night when it comes down to it for the past weekend it ended with just me and corey talking. I swear to God, the kid is my everything. Despite how screwed up things are, and how the blood and the tears and the blades and the pain dictates our life we end up just laughing. I really dont know what to do though; with the megan, brittany,and corey thing. My heart just hurts. I mean I cant choose one person but whenever I'm with one of them I feel like I'm betraying the other. I know everyone has their own person to talk to, but its like all of them expect me to talk to them and i just dont understand. I just dont fucking understand whats going on right now. Why do people have to do this? Why are hearts broken? And internally truthful emails sent and why are blades drawn on skin and why does it seem like the world is tumbling and all I can think is that I'm weak cause I'm going with the flow. With the blood and the tears and the drugs and the alcohol. I dont know where to turn and ti never seems to stop. It's a fucking chain. A chemically adictive fad. And God, I have a friggen bug bite and it's annoying the fuck out of me. I just dont know whats going on and I cant be there for everyone but I have to be. I'm so many things right now and it's never good enough. i cant be everyones best friend and everyones telling me that i need to worry about myself but I dont know how to take care of myself whene everyone needs me. I dont know how to do that.

the.end.

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 01:13:31 GMT

Today...was the epitiome of a bittersweet day. Brittany and me woke up at ten in the morning and went to Corey's at eleven and everyone else was "crunkk in the club", cept me. And then Corey and me had this big fight that I'm not gonna write about just that it was bad. Then we went to the lounge and people are bitches, they know who they are, and then there was happiness with me and brittany for a little while and then my dad called drunk and that just made things worse and me and britt decided we're sisters, and did some stupid but amazing things that are not sexual so get those thoughts out of your head. Anyway, it was an alright day over all. Tomorrow's a friday and thats awesome. Oh, and to anyone who cares I'm not going to be at my dad's this weekend but I have psat's on saturday morning and then I'll be with John for the weekend... :). Anyway, much love. <3 Rhi

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 06:06:51 GMT

OH MY FUCKING GOD...I'm going out with Matt...like my matt...bayonne matt. I'm dying I'm so happy. Like its just...amazing. This is the best high ever. I know he's gonna read this when he gets home and go "wtf" but I dont care cause im so happy. Ack. I leave Sunday and that means a week without talking to him or anyone else... :( . I will update tomorrow ith my happiness. <3 rhi

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 04:27:59 GMT

I got up uber early yesterday to go with Corey to register for his classes but we had fun. Went back to his house and then to the mall with his older brother who is awesome. Met my new med doctor today and she's even worse then the other one who I hated. Why do i need to fill out a bunch of forms on "how i'm feeling"; what the shit? I just talked to Matt on the phone even it was only for a little while. He's in Florida for like a month and I'm gonna miss him so much. I <3 matt. Anyway, went to see "Stealth" with Britt, Sam, Chris, and Tony and it was a pretty good movie even though Chris stole my shoe and tried to throw it in the trash. Dork. Nothing to exciting; just another day in the life of moi. update tomorrow-ish. <3 rhi

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 05:17:18 GMT

Went to Tonys and swam for six friggen hours. It's amazing though cause he has a heated pool AND a hot tub. I had to wear Maya's suit though and it was tiny and I was really uncomfortable. Sam was mean and wouldnt let me in the hot-tub until I stopped covering my stomach. We ate hotdogs and hamburgers and stuff and just kind of hung out all day. Then at ten Me, Megan, and Britt went to Thoms and chilled there and Matt had this hula-hoop and he poped it open and there was water in it and he spilt in on Megan on accident and she kicked the shit out of him. Later he said something to me adn I was hitting him with the plastic bag my suit was in and i was like "Shut the fuck," and I looked down cause I heard a pop and my bag had broke and my suit was on the floor and for some reason he found this to be the funniest thing EVER and started laughing hysterically and that got me going so we were both literally on the floor laughing cause we're idiots. Then he shot the hula-hoop water at me and I wanted to kill him. Nothing really exciting. Megan leaves tomorrow...today was my last ngith with her. Three weeks, man. I'm gonna miss my favorite biatch. Love ya MEGAN! <<3 Rhi

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 05:31:25 GMT

So...today was another boring day in the life of me. I seriously wonder if anyone reads this cause I wouldnt. I slept at Megan's last night and apparently Bruce is the boss and Megan is a candle-eating-flower-head. Welcome to three in the morning Britt and Megan logic. Gotta love it. Went shopping with my dad...awkward for a little then we were okay-ish. And I got the coolest shoes in the world. I'll take a pic of them and post them on here. They're flipping wonderful. Went to the lounge and basically just hung out there with a bunch of people. Sat by the benches for two hours then by Ryan's car for another two watching random black drunk ladies come up to us and yell for us to get off her brothers car before realizing it WASNT her brother's car but rather ryans. Weird shit. Some stuff of interest happened but nothing any of my non-readers would like to know. I got in touch with Matt even though he's not picking up his damn phone. Tomorrow's my last day with Megan for THREE FUCKING WEEKS. I'm pretty sure I'll cry. So...the end? Write back tomorrow. <3 Rhi

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 04:28:15 GMT

Slept over megans last night so I woke up with her jumping on me. Then I watched part of the Blair Witch Project with her and Britt before going to the eye doctors. Contacts are good and such. Went back to the lounge nad listened to the Sex Pistols with Justin who rocks. Didnt really do much of anything really. Went out to dinner with this dude who works at the camp im working at. Wasnt to exciting. Went back to the lounge and Corey drove by and I was all gangster in his hat. We listened to rap and I got the whole head bob thing down. Hung out with Rob who I missed like woah. Then we dropped Rob off and Corey, Megan, and Me hung out for a little before he dropped me off. Went home, took a shower, and am now updating this which must be so boring to read. <3 Rhi

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 05:20:06 GMT

Got bored; mad a new livejournal. Went to the lounge today; hung out a bit. Then called Corey and we (me, him, and megan) went to the mall and just kinda walked around. Had a food fight in Burger King and went to "Dicks" (a sporting place that changed it's name and Corey still refuses to call it Dicks even though I keep teasing him about it). I got this little Fantastic Four toy in my BK kids meal thingy *yeah I still eat kids meals* and I named it my and Corey's new little brother. Well the guy took it went "There's only room for one man in this family" (all macho-like like he's scary) and started trying to bite the things head off. We left and went back to the lounge; full intent on only staying for a little. A little turned into like four hours. Hung out with some people. Dan smelt really good and I switched shirts with him so he was wearing my tiny monkey one and it was funny. Corey went to play pool then came back and we sat in his car and listened to music for a while then he came out and chilled with us lounge-junkies. Whether he likes it or nto he knows he had a little fun. I'm home now, bored as fuck. Masha got me thinking on the drive home. She was 16 when she fell in love with Leon and he was 26. It isnt as pedifiely as it sounds because they've been together for 7 years now but its like if they two of them could last through all that shit about age differences and I cant get over a little fear then who am I. Matt still hasnt called...he's avoiding me. I think we're going on five days now. I'm not gonna call him tongiht though cause I'm done with it. Girly-girly giggly-ness isnt me and he's already caused enough of that. Anyway...I'm still bored. I wanna go to the beach soon...maybe this week. I'll write back tomorrow. <33 always Rhi